There has been plenty going on in my life lately! Some big decisions made and lots of changes. I am positive that these tough decisions (although hard to make) will benefit me and also my family.
First of all, I decided to shelve my not for profit. For now. With everything else that is going on, I need to focus on that and will then be able to throw myself and my all into it in the future. So I am looking longer term- 2 years at least.
Next- I reduced my voluntary roles. Or pared them back. As much as I loved them, they took up a LOT of my time. I am no longer admin for the support page for Aussie surrogates, nor am I moderating another surrogacy website. But my support of surrogates and IP’s wont change. I will still be there for them whenever they need me. I value that role too much to give it up. I will continue my role moderating a parenting FB group but wont be able to commit as much time to it. Everyone has been so supportive which has been wonderful. It was one of those times when I didn’t feel guilty for saying that I needed to give something up to focus more on ME.
I did all of this for 2 reasons:
- I am learning how to run! I need a new physical challenge. I knew that with some big things coming up in my life, I would need a bit of time to just release from everything going on. I was introduced to a wonderful running group full of supportive, motivating mummies and I really feel like I can make a go of this. Will you see me running marathons? Probably not. But working my way from a non runner to being able to run 10km without stopping is the goal I have set for myself and we will go from there. I am in week 4 of this challenge and hope to run 10km by Christmas. I am running 3 times a week, just for 30 mins and really enjoying it thus far.
- I AM GOING TO STUDY! This is HUUUUUUGE for me. Something hit me in the face like a book being thrown across a room (hey, that’s my analogy and I am running with it) and I knew I needed to do something to increase my skillset as I look to the future. The kids will be off to primary school in the coming years and I want to be able to look at my options and actually have options! I want to be able to increase my knowledge to hopefully be in a position where I can use it to either start a business or work for others in an area I am truly passionate about. I am excited about this. And shitting myself as well. Its a big change and its been a while since I properly studied (hello 2001 anyone?!). I start in November, all of it is online and hopefully after some hard work I will have a university degree. I will not be reducing my hours at work- I will be studying in addition to this- hence having to cut down on or give up some of my voluntary roles.
So what about surrogacy?
Yes, there is a place in my life for being a surrogate again. The running might have to take a back seat (as funny as that would look) and if need be, I can cut down on uni subjects, but there is no reason why I can’t do it all!
Hubby and I will be debriefing with one of my midwives (the beautiful S), late next week and if hubby still has unanswered questions, we will book in an appointment with the Ob.
As for potential IP’s, I will announce when there is something to announce.